Running Away/Dating/Interests

Hi Everyone,
OK, so I asked on Facebook what I should write about and so I wanted to write on some of the things some people suggested.

1. Have you ever thought of running away? What keeps you from doing that?

Yes, I have thought of running away from everything. If I could I would be on the first train, plane away from here. There is a sense of comfort in this little town of Rose City though. Maybe its all the people here or the similar surroundings but feels right. I say I cant stand it sometimes and yes I cant sometimes but I love that I'm able to see some of familiar faces of friends. What keeps me from just walking away from everything is people in my life and my insecurity of myself. I've always had those questions like "What if my shunt quits working?", " What if I'm not able to work the job to the best of my capabilities?" and the big one "How can I do it all by myself?" running through my head. I have always ran away from my problems.. I avoid them till they become a real problem.
My advice to a person who is thinking about running away from your problems is talk to someone and get their advice. Friends are put into your life for a purpose.

2. What are your hobbies and interest?

I like a lot of things that are I guess in the category of creative. I have come to love to scrapbook Acorn Buddy Camp pictures for the last 11 years. I love how I can make a page that tells a story. I do believe a picture is worth a 1000 words. I like to do little projects for friends. I like knowing that I can make something for them and make them smile. My true friends mean the world to me. I love to write them and let them know I think of them everyday. I love receiving mail back from them. It makes it all worth while <3

I took my first art class in high school and fell in love with being able to draw things. I love to draw some people and designs. Mrs. Anne Clayton showed me a lot about Art and drawing that I never knew I could do. I love how she taught and never judge you on how well you did.

I also am a music fanatic. Most of you know if you have read some of my other blogs I admire Reba McEntire. I just love her drive, honesty, and her compassion.  I love country music but I also love a song that can tell a story. When I can I love to go to concerts. I love how the person can catch the attention of all the people and how you can go through so many emotions in every set. I always would imagine myself on stage with them and singing along. I do however have a very deep case of stage fright though. I have a dream to be able to travel with Reba for a tour. I dont know what I would want to do but its a dream. I been fortunate to be able to have seen a lot of my favorite stars live (most were opening acts for others) Reba McEntire (11) Martina McBride (5), Mickey Utley (1) Shania Twain (1), Kellie Pickler (1), Lady Antellbum (1), George Strait (1), Lee Ann Womack (1), The Band Perry (1), Trace Adkins (1), Terri Clark (1), Brad Paisley (1), Steel Magnolia (1), and Eden's Edge (1). I watch all the country music things that go on TV. I guess you can say I'm a Country Girl Forever.

I am also a person who loves TV. I love shows like The Biggest Loser, The Nanny, CSI, Reba (only ran for 6 yrs), The Voice, Disney Channel. It makes me escape the world I think. When I was younger though I was a Disney movie person all the way. I know I have said this once before but  my favorite movie is The Little Mermaid. I just think that Ariel is me. I'm also a sucker for a happy ending :)

3.What do you do in your spare time?
Spare time.. what exactly does this mean. We all have this one life to live and I think every minute of your life is precious. I know being down a dark path that I needed to cling onto something or I wouldn't get out of the direction I was going. I didn't realize back then that there was light at the end of this tunnel.

I know for me I sleep too much. If I could I would sleep my life away but I know I cant do that. It comes from how I've dealt with depression too. I always thought what is the point of getting out of bed. No one cares what I do anymore. I used to skip school just to sleep all day. I know now that its only sometimes good to sleep a lot.

4. What is your thought process on dating?

Honestly dating is something I actually avoided. Being a girl with a disability and low self esteem (Yes, I have come to admit it), I always have thought that I wasn't good enough for anyone. My opinion though as far as pursuing dating later in life is that I think I need to get me together and figured out before I will step out in the real dating scene. I also have the thoughts that you truly don't need a man to be happy.

I guess I haven't had the best experiences in the "dating" scene. When I was younger, I can remember having been asked out by a boy in middle school. I was on cloud 9. We talked everyday on the phone. Never really went out on a "date". Come to find out that he made a bet with a friend that he could go out with me for a week. I was crushed. After he called and told me that it was through. I decided from then on out I wasn't good enough for any boy. Another try on dating for me is I was online and met a boy from Saginaw. We had decided that we would wait for about a year before meeting. He knew I had a disability and we had pics of each other. I thought he was a real gentlemen. Long story short a friend tricked me into meeting him at the mall in Saginaw. I really thought it went well but on Easter he called and told me he didn't think it wasn't working out. When I asked him why he said that he didn't think I wasn't the girl for him. Come to find out it was because he didn't like my appearance. So you can say I really havent had a "real" boyfriend.  So I'm not really sure how to go out and find a guy. Maybe someday I will find the "one". But as of right now I need to find me first. 

5. What keeps you getting up to face the day?
Friends. Reba. Dreams. Faith.


Thank you to all of you for your questions. Keep them coming!! Love you all!! TTFN, DREAM GIRL