Saturday, November 17, 2012

Day 6: I am thankful for... Jenna

Today I am thankful for a young lady who came into my life I believe to show me I can trust people and to know the kindness of a stranger.  This young lady has changed my life so much I cant tell you enough how much she has saved my life. I knew of Jenna Jones in high school and always thought to myself that she would never be friends with a "freak" like me. I began this blog back last year and she commented on a few of them. She was so sweet and caring. There was something about her that was comforting and then we became friends on Facebook. I didn't realize that she would become the best friend I really never had.

Over this past summer, Jenna invited me to a day with her as a spa day which changed my life. The decision to go was not a easy one for me. As a kid growing up, I hated going to friends house. I know a lot had to do with me hiding my bathroom stuff from them and not liking being in situation that require me to be around people I really didn't know. I thought that no one would understand and would make fun of me because in school some kids that found out were cruel. That day with Jenna was different though. She wanted to hang out and wanted to get to know me. We had a blast and I got to understand that there are people out there that will understand and its OK to be yourself. I dont regret it at all. :)

Jenna and I hung out a bunch more times during the summer and such. She is one of the sweetest people I know.Also for me it is a big step towards be able to get my depression under control because I found someone that loved me for me and wanted to truly be my friend. I have trust issue due to having a disability and people not understanding it and such but I don't have to worry about that with Jenna.

Jenna's drive and her belief in her dreams is so incredible. I used to think that my dreams were bigger than me and that no one understands them. Jenna has big dreams too and I now understand that my dreams are there for a reason! She is such a talented person with so much potential. I will be a fan of hers for life!

The summer came to an end and a few months ago, Jenna moved a away to WI. As excited I was for her and so extremely happy for her, I kinda felt my world ending. I had found a best friend to hang out and now she was leaving. The day she came to get me to go out for ice cream, I wasn't sure how to say goodbye. I didnt really want to. There is a saying that says "Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting." I didnt want to forget all things I had learned and such. That day when she dropped me off at my apartment and I sat down and glance around looking at all the pictures of us and smiling. My life had changed so much I was so content with it all. I didnt notice i had tears running down my cheek. I know she is where she needs to be though. I miss her everyday!

Jenna may not be to stand beside me but she is always helping me everyday get up each day with hope. Hope that I have a purpose in life and someone who cares! I cant wait till I can see her again!

Love you Jenna Jones! Never give up on anything because I believe in you! I am always here if you need anything!


1 comment:

  1. It's good to have friends you can trust. Letting people in is part of that. You've come a long way, baby.