Thursday, November 1, 2012

Im Thankful for.............. My Parents

I decided to start this month of thankfulness with where it started. My parents are two of my favorite people.  Without them I wouldn't be here with you today!! Yes, you might ask why in the world. You had a rough childhood and most of the time you seem like you hated them or blamed them. Well some of that is true, but for one thing I have never blamed my parents for the way I am. I have had my trials and faults but I look back now and they were always there for me and always will be. They raised a daughter with Spina Bifida in a time where there wasn't really any information out on SB. They tried to do it the best they could. they also had to raise two boys. 

Through the years I really have come to appreciate my parents more and more. They do the best they can and that is all I really want. Both of them are my heroes in different ways. I guess you can say I am a "Mommy and Daddy's Girl". 

My mom is the one I remember always being at my doctors appointments and surgeries through out the years. She would always be there for my surgeries to tell me she loved me and she would she me after. She never broke that promise. There were so many times that I can remember being so relieve that she was there after. Her and I haven't always been the best of friends a lot of the time. I understand now that she was trying her best but I wasn't comfortable in my own skin and how was she suppose to help me if I wasn't. When my grandma died, I had so much hatred towards my parents because at that age I blamed the world for letting her died and not letting me say goodbye. I am truly sorry to my mom especially because I never took the time to realize when she and I would get in fights that my grandma was her number one call too. I just was hurt by the fact I had lost the one person I thought cared. I now realize that I wasn't the only one that was hurt that day. It has taken me a lot to try and open up to my mom but one I hope to be able to tell her how much i did and do care. I realize that she will forever be my number one fan. There is a song that defines her in so many ways.

Somebody's Hero
"She's never pulled anyone from a burning building
She's never rocked Central Park to a half a million fans, screaming out her name
She's never hit a shot to win the game
She's never left her footprints on the moon
She's never made a solo hot air balloon ride, around the world, 
No, she's just your everyday average girl (but)

She's somebody's hero
A hero to her baby with a skinned up knee
A little kiss is all she needs
The keeper of the cheerios
The voice that brings Snow White to life
Bedtime stories every night
And that smile lets her know
She's somebody's hero"

My dad is one of my favorite men in my life. He shows me that hard work pays off and if you want something in life you have to believe you want it. My dad worked out of town a lot when I was little. He would leave on Sunday and come home on Thursday. I would look forward to that day he would come home. I loved going fishing with him even though I hated touching the fish. I just loved being with him. My dad isn't really one to show emotion or say he loves us but I have never doubted for a minute. He has done so much for me, I can find the words to thank him. He built an apartment when I needed a place and then getting me cars to drive. My dad is a very hard working with everything he does. He pushes me to be the best I can be.  

Daddy's Hands
"Years of work and worry had left their mark behind. 
I remember Daddy´s hands, how they held my Mama tight,
And patted my back, for something done right.
There are things that I´ve forgotten, that I loved about the man,
But I´ll always remember the love in Daddy´s hands.

Daddy's hands were soft and kind when I was cryin´.
Daddy´s hands, were hard as steel when I´d done wrong.
Daddy´s hands, weren´t always gentle 
But I´ve come to understand.
There was always love in Daddy´s hands.

I remember Daddy´s hands, working 'til they bled.
Sacrificed unselfishly, just to keep us all fed.
If I could do things over, I´d live my life again.
And never take for granted the love in Daddy´s hands."

So I am Thankful for my parents and I always will! They have taught me so many lessons from "Treat others the way you want to be treated", "Help others that need help", "Be the best you can be" and "Love the people who love you and forget the ones that make you sad or mad". I love them with all my heart! I hope they understand I am working progress and someday I will find my path and if they stay along for the ride, I will show them I can make it!